executive decison.

after lots & lots of thinking, i have decided to choose celibacy over sex.

i've decided to remain celibate until i am in a meaningful relationship. none of that month & a half/2 month shit.

1. it will really allow me to weed out who is genuinely interested in getting to know me and to what extent.
i know if i was a dude & im not really into a chick like that, there is no way in hell i would hang in there for four months with no sex. its not happening. so if a dude is willing & able to do that then that tells me they're interested enough to wait & in turn, my not giving it up will earn me respect. & thats big cuz the element of respect plays a huge role in relationships..intimate or not. if someone respects you, there are certain things they wont even consider doing to you.

2. it sets up a situation where we have to actually get to know one another. we have to take the time & actually have some type of intimate conversation/interaction
**sidebar: intimacy does not necessarily relate to sex or getting physical.
good conversation stimulates my mind so thats very important to me

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3. it controls the amount of people you sleep with

im a passionate person & i dont believe in always inhibiting myself so if im feeling a dude & it gets to that point where the opportunity to connect on that sexual level arises, its definitely an option of mine.
but lets face it, having a lot of partners is not cute. i take pride in being able to count the dudes i've messed with on one hand
**sidebar: im not disclosing a particular number. thats my business.
& i like to keep it like that. when you get to the point that you cant remember how many folks you've slept with, its not a good look. & theres no judgement on my part. im just saying

so..hear ye' hear ye'

i am now a member of the "dont stick me" club.

that is all

wet dreams.

i want to have sex in the rain.
something about getting pelted with cold rain drops while my partner shows me who's ass it is turns me on to the highest degree. & rain = outdoors, which means we just may get caught or be seen.
&& theres always a picnic table involved. (feel free to cultivate your own fantasy from there)

**inhales**
now pardon me as i watch this man fuck the shit out of this long haired, thick, black bone & proceed to get me a nut.

"Damn nigga, when i grow up..

...i wanna be just like you!" --C.T.

so yesterday i was chilling with my girls on campus & my friends roommate just found out that her boyfriend was cheating on her. He was kicking it with some girl at his school & they were supposedly boyfriend & girlfriend too. The shit goes deep but im not gon put her business all out like that plus its a long story.

Shit just got me thinking like "college niggas are extra trifling".

So i was thinking like thats why you cant really get in a relationship with em. Especially the freshman, sophmores & juniors. You might could fuck around & find you a senior who's on his shit & ready to be serious. Thats slim though.

So i had this whole bright idea, just find one dude & yall just mess around. The cons with that though surpass the pros. Theres no guarantee that dude will just be fucking with you. & being that you not his girl, you cant be interrogating the nigga. Its not your business who hes with & what hes doing. But try telling that to a woman (lets face it: we're territorial/emotional creatures). But lets say you dont care who & what hes doing-----theres still that chance that you could fuck around & catch feelings. Then you gon be looking stupid cuz you will be the only motherfucker feeling some kinda way.

On the flip side though, that male companionship is o so necessary. Whether we wanna admit it or not, we all need someone of the opposite sex that we can cuddle up with, make-out & cake with. I know after a long day or during the late night hours, i want someone to kinda take my mind off that. I want someone to make me feel good. Yall know what im talking about.

& shit gets frustrating cuz its like, i dont wanna listen to you when you say you wanna be with me cuz im well aware thats code for "i just wanna fuck". & then i dont wanna fuck around with that platonic shit & catch feelings......but i do want/need that type of companionship.

so wtf is a girl to do??
i guess just wait it out & a good dude'll come along & all that but honestly shits sounding like "blah blah blah" to me right about now.
guess ima just focus on school & this money & let the chips fall as they may

.pause moment. smdh

im all for experimenting sexually & getting a lil kinky & nasty here & there but some shit is just fucking disgusting.

i was catching up on the gossip mill yesterday & i ran into this post about Lil Boosie.
This nigga was getting cerebral & the broad threw up on him. guess what this mug did....

...he dragged her to the bathroom, made her clean herself off, cleaned his dick off & then he let shorty get right back to sucking. thats freaking nasty kidd. where the fuck they do that at??
i mean, if i was a dude & that shit happened, id allow you to clean yourself up then kindly kick your ass out.

then he was talking about how he sticks extacy pills up girls ass's as they suck his dick & how they be acting all crazy & shit.
that nigga sloppy.

check that shit at your own discretion: http://www.dlisted.com/node/33726

**link via theybf.com

sex.

...is so much better when you're doing it someplace you're not supposed to.

theres just something about possibly getting caught & (in my situation) his raspy voice in my ear shushing me (lol) thats really sexy.