damn "simultaneous feedback"

i just took my intro to communications final & boy am i upset.
i missed a freaking question that i KNEW yet when i get to that question my mind goes blank.
i cant remember shit.
i sit there & stare at the paper for at least 10 minutes in hopes that if i stare at it enough it'll come back to me.
i end up being the last motherfucker in the class so i say fuck it.
soon as i leave, i pull out my notes & the answer was so effing obvious!
im mad as hell i missed it cuz i knew that shit inside out.

the question:
what are the two main differences between face to face and mediated communication?

answer that stumped me:
simultaneous feedback & lack of social roles

two meesly words. **blank stare**
damn that "simultaneous feedback"

no bueno.

im so pissed off right now. like dead ass.
this twigga & i are tweeting & we're joking around & whatever. a while later i tweet that im tired. dudes like "if you're tired then be quiet & go to sleep hoe".

like what the fuck? who the fuck are you to speak to me like that?
the tweet wasnt even much directed towards his ass mind you.
like i know we're cool but im not cool enough with anybody to have em calling me names & shit. thats a no go.

part of me feels like maybe he was joking (even if he was, i dont like that..) but the other half of me wants to go in his shit & let him know a thing or two.
for those of yall who think im over-reacting: no celibacy (that means fuck you). **sidenote: yes. i coined "no celibacy".**

for those who arent with the program, allow me to remind you that i've been verbally & emotionally abused. i've been called just about every single derogatory name in the book & treated like the dirt on the bottom of your shoes so when folks call me out of my name, especially males, i take it really personal & thats just not cool to me.

i dont give a fuck what anybody says. shit just doesnt fly.

.one of those days.

yesterday was one of the worst days i've had in a while. im still in quite a sour mood but i realize that won't change my situation.

sometimes you find yourself in some pretty fucked up situations & all you can do is fasten your seat belt & ride it out.

though im not the type to just sit by & let shit happen------especially when things aren't going my way--------i know sometimes fighting won't get me anywhere.

sooooo
im starting my engine

& to all the folks i neglected to talk to today: its still nothing but love guys. just needed to get it together. xoxo. i'll be back to my old self after some sleep.

at least lets hope so.lol